Why Am I Here?

For one reason or another, I have been asking this question lately. Why am I here? At some level I know the answer, but there is another that begs me to ask myself this. I know why I am here at Southern, to become a better equipped minister of the Gospel. But why am I here on this earth, during this era, in these set of years, even during this very moment. What does God want me to do? I know that you cannot go wrong when you go out with the glory of God as your top priority, and with the gospel as your driving force. If I had to boil my desire down to one certain thing it would be this... That it would count. My two greatest fears have always been, being alone and wasting my life. I want my every moment to count for the gospel, but I'm not sure what that looks like right now, in my present situation. I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone, and I am confident in the fact that there is someone out there that can put up with me. :) But it seems that as you move on and on with your life, these fears that you know have been conquered in the cross show themselves from time to time. It hurts. I struggle. I feel like I'm drowning in them. I don't see any end in sight. But still there is something deep within me that tells me to hold on. To remember the truth of who God is and what He has done and what He has promised. I ask that you pray for me. I don't wish to know the full plan of God for my life, or who God wants me to marry, or what the very next day holds (or lacks). I desire for my life to count for His glory and His gospel. That through all the fun and friendships, God would be glorified. That through my studies God would be glorified. That through all the relationships, both new and old, God would be glorified. Pray that my fears would be overcome with His truth, with His cross, with His resurrection. I am eternally thankful/grateful for all that God has done for me, and that He has called me out of darkness and into the Light. And into His ministry. "Glory to God! Glory to God! Glory to God forever! Take my life and let it be all for You and for Your glory! Take my life and let it be Yours." -Fee "Glory to God Forever"